I've started several blog entries but none of them "feel" right... I really don't know what to say.
Thanks to all who have e-mailed, called or posted a note on our blog. We haven't been able to get back to everyone but we appreciate you all! On Friday and Saturday we needed some time to process everything. We are over the shock and are moving on. We've changed our computer wallpaper back to Igor's picture. We haven't decided what to do with the child's pictures. Keeping the pictures doesn't feel right but deleting them feels wrong. For now we are keeping the pictures and video.
We shared the news with Igor who kept asking "why" but accepted the news. Now he tells people that he is getting a different brother.
I bought a couple outfits for the child we were referred. I haven't decided if I should return the clothes or if I should keep them. I don't know what the odds are of receiving another 2 year old is.....
Saturday morning we went blueberry picking. Rob, Igor and I pick 8 pounds of blueberries! I froze several quarts then I canned blueberry syrup. Rob and I tried some syrup tonight on ice cream. We both were disappointed, it didn't have enough blueberry flavor! I know it's not the blueberries because they are delicious raw. I think I will try a different recipe next time.
Yesterday Igor and I picked our first zucchini! We defied the wildlife! We are growing zucchini in planter boxes.
Since we probably won't be going to Ethiopia this year we have decided to go on vacation in August. We need to get away. I'm trying to find a beach house or condo at one of the Carolina beaches. Since it is so late in the season I haven't been able to find a place in the right location for the right price. This week, I hope to find the perfect place in our price range!
Igor and I have been spending a lot of time listening to music. Since learning the sad news about our referral Igor has been listening to:
and somedays I listen to this.... WARNING... this song is raw, edgy, heavy and a little disturbing. Which could describe some of my feelings (occasionally). Well except the disturbing part. The song is sung by a Christian band. I promise I am okay. Sometimes I feel like I need new breath breathed into me... have you ever felt that way too?